gone
totally gone
not a word
just gone
as blackness of the night
takes over
the pain is appalling
pieces of me
torn
from my body heart mind and soul
there’s an emptiness
an aching
i scream
sob
thrown to the winds
they float away
are blown so far
out of reach
and yet i must
for they
are the parts of me
that are you
that are us
i must have them back
or
watch them go
the moments i stop
and watch them float away
on the breeze
the wind
the gale
i see them for what they are
my memories of you
each
carried away
by a ghost
in despair
i chase them
first one
then another
oblivious to me
they flee
some easily caught
but my hands
won’t hold them
the ghosts
that carry you away from me
those ghosts
they are cowards
they flee
never facing me
always moving away
showing no respect
I see only
their backs
taking my memories
moments
and you
so far away from me
one ghost stops
and turns it’s face
sad
pained
tired
it looks at me
with tenderness
tinged perhaps with love
and then
it too is gone
ghosts
tearing you
away from me
but i refuse
you loved me once
and i loved you
it will not be
i sit
and slowly draw
the memories of you back
the pain is excruciating
it wracks my being
but i will have them back
and they will be
the echo of you in my life
friends
friends
precious some
sit with me
and listen
how can an exquisite memory
a moment in time
of great beauty
be ghosted away
so easily
friends listen to me
as i recount my memories
of you
a ghost comes back to me
it is the one
that for a moment before
showed me the love
I knew so well
the sadness on it’s face still there
it’s look pleading and desperate
i will have it back
the memory is mine
slowly
tentatively
with great tenderness
it lays the memory on my heart
and the ghost is gone
i have you back
a part of us is back
and in the darkness
a tiny star is born
deep in the night sky
in time
my night sky will be full of our memories
exquisite
beautiful
painful
poignant
those memories of us
of you
and then one day
a dawn may come
when you and i
are us again
forging new memories
for another night sky
until then
i will draw my ghosts back
all our memories
i will place in the night sky
to remind me
of what life used to be
and can be again
(C) Copyright Luke Visser 2016 (written Jan 2016)
