Wednesday 30 March 2016

The Hand of a Friend

invisible
with no form
sinking deeper
into the haze
the mist
the depths


fear drawing deeper
senses numbed
no one around
nothing
no one
alone


not just one fear
but many
compounding
make life
bleaker
darker
with even less form


a bump
a landing
finally at rock bottom
a resting place
to curl up and be


forgotten


it feels strangely warm
oddly comforting
to be at the bottom
to be without any way forward


a light breath blows through the mists
making them seem thinner
blueness is there
it’s hues are gentle and deep
blueness reigns


a fresh breeze tousles
what was gray and formless
now has blues and greens
and a yellow brings vibrancy to life


a hand
a hand of a friend
holds the shapelessness of life
that was once vibrant, hued and deep
the hand of a friend
with it’s own blues, greens and yellows
gives form to a shapeless life


remembered


the yellow hurts
it is too bright
too sharp
too painful
but the blues and greens give nurture and care


a gentle dance of colours begin
on the hand of a friend
who dared be a friend
just blues and greens for now
but in time
yellow
orange
red
will be back again too


because of a friend
who dared be a friend
and held out a hand

and blew breath into a life This poem was inspired by a drawing by a friend :) ... it's a wonderful example of how art inspires art in others, so thank you Kayla for your drawing.

(c) Copyright Luke Visser 2016 (written March 2016)

Monday 11 January 2016

Ghosted Away

gone
totally gone
not a word
just gone
as blackness of the night
takes over

the pain is appalling
pieces of me
torn
from my body heart mind and soul
there’s an emptiness
an aching
i scream
sob

thrown to the winds
they float away
are blown so far
out of reach

and yet i must
for they
are the parts of me
that are you
that are us

i must have them back
or
watch them go

the moments i stop
and watch them float away
on the breeze
the wind
the gale

i see them for what they are
my memories of you
each
carried away
by a ghost

in despair
i chase them
first one
then another

oblivious to me
they flee
some easily caught
but my hands
won’t hold them

the ghosts
that carry you away from me
those ghosts
they are cowards
they flee
never facing me
always moving away
showing no respect

I see only
their backs
taking my memories
moments
and you
so far away from me

one ghost stops
and turns it’s face
sad
pained
tired
it looks at me
with tenderness
tinged perhaps with love
and then
it too is gone

ghosts
tearing you
away from me

but i refuse
you loved me once
and i loved you
it will not be

i sit
and slowly draw
the memories of you back
the pain is excruciating
it wracks my being

but i will have them back
and they will be
the echo of you in my life

friends
precious some
sit with me
and listen

how can an exquisite memory
a moment in time
of great beauty
be ghosted away
so easily

friends listen to me
as i recount my memories
of you

a ghost comes back to me
it is the one
that for a moment before
showed me the love
I knew so well
the sadness on it’s face still there
it’s look pleading and desperate

i will have it back
the memory is mine

slowly
tentatively
with great tenderness
it lays the memory on my heart
and the ghost is gone

i have you back
a part of us is back
and in the darkness
a tiny star is born
deep in the night sky

in time
my night sky will be full of our memories
exquisite
beautiful
painful
poignant
those memories of us
of you

and then one day
a dawn may come
when you and i
are us again
forging new memories
for another night sky

until then
i will draw my ghosts back
all our memories
i will place in the night sky
to remind me
of what life used to be

and can be again

(C) Copyright Luke Visser 2016 (written Jan 2016)